(originally posted May 27, 2013)

So the other night after I wrote a truly tormented blog, I prayed, and the still small voice in my head said “You have to give it away in order to keep it.” This I knew to be in reference to my serenity. Then, I opened up the bible to a random page and it landed on the same passage I have landed on twice before, and this was the story of how Isaiah was before the Lord and realized his uncleanliness, and told God of his unclean lips. So the seraphim with God took a coal from the fire and put it in his mouth to cleanse him. I looked up unclean lips because I wasn’t sure what it was that the Bible was referring to, and what I gathered was that unclean lips was being used in reference to gossip, complaining, lying, whining, etc. While I do engage in a degree of gossip and the occasional “white” lie, I think more than anything God wants me to be grateful and to use my lips to edify the Lord rather than complaining about my life. I must share with others my experience, strength, and hope. I must praise God and the blessings I have received rather than continuing to focus on the negative in my life, and just have faith that God truly wants me to be happy, joyous, and free.