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Jigsaw
by James Blake Beene
(Originally written in teen years ’95-01) You were puzzled over pieces to this jigsaw we call life Your plans were not that simple, and your hopes were way too high Your heart was labeled fragile Often filled with foolish pride Your heart was labeled fragile We still wonder how it died You were puzzled over answers to the questions often asked Finding answers to the unknown always used to be your task You weren’t watching where you were going And you fell Fell too fast You were puzzled over pieces to this jigsaw we call life “read more…”
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Stitched in Time
by James Blake Beene
(Originally written in teen years ’95-01) Stitched in stressful, scornful sorrow Threads may hold til it be ‘morrow Frayed knots entrap the endless pain So that I may remain contained But slowly as my fear unravels Depressing thoughts begin to travel Yet as I fight off the constant strain Faith and love I shall maintain “read more…”
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Fading Away
by James Blake Beene
(Originally published in America at the Millenium: The Best Poems and Poets of the 20th Century, edited by Howard Ely, The International Library of Poetry, 2000, pp. 191.) I approached her as she lay there, So fragile and so frail. Her eyes appeared so dreamy, And her clothes, they smelled so stale. Her lips, they parted slowly, As she spoke sincere and wise. She talked about the good ‘ol days, And gave me much advice. She held her heart in front of her. Her emotions were so clear. She was ready for a better place, And in death she did… “read more…”
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Glass Hearts
by James Blake Beene
(Originally written in teen years ’95-01) Their tender hearts were made of glass ‘Til love cast its precious stone The shallow ones just let them pass So they crept through life alone At times in life they’d find a shard Of the hearts they once displayed And tiny crushes they would discard For their true love was delayed They walked through life hand in hand ‘Til finally one day They opened their eyes to understand Love was with them all the way “read more…”
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Remember Me
by James Blake Beene
(Originally written in teen years ’95-01) Remember me this Christmas As you share with those that you hold dear The gifts of faith and love And the coming of New Year And in those special moments I’ll be thinking of you too For in my heart Where you will stay I will share them all with you “read more…”
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Divine Pattern
by James Blake Beene
Like waves of the ocean, everything has a pattern. The divine pattern cannot be interpreted from a finite lens. As the waves move forward and then pull back, we, too, can take action and relax, like the push-pull of a workout. We are just a tiny piece of God with both free will AND destiny. Why? Because free will is whatever God’s will is because there is only God, which can only truly be known from an infinite perspective. From the finite ego, we see it as being done to us, or what we coin as destiny, because it’s not… “read more…”
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I Just Don’t Understand
by James Blake Beene
Today, we enter a new era into the dumbing down of an already dumbed-down America. LGBTQ+ books being read to your children was the least of your problems. Prepare for the indoctrination of your children into a new regime of authoritarian government propaganda, starting with the Christian Nationalist Trump Bible in combination with the banning of certain books and trickling into all aspects of your life. First banning, then burning, to whitewash history in preparation for the new regime. Let the real grooming begin. The funny thing is I get most angry about what I just don’t understand. I just… “read more…”
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Clean Lips
by James Blake Beene
(originally posted May 27, 2013) So the other night after I wrote a truly tormented blog, I prayed, and the still small voice in my head said “You have to give it away in order to keep it.” This I knew to be in reference to my serenity. Then, I opened up the bible to a random page and it landed on the same passage I have landed on twice before, and this was the story of how Isaiah was before the Lord and realized his uncleanliness, and told God of his unclean lips. So the seraphim with God took… “read more…”
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Staying Present
by James Blake Beene
(originally posted May 24, 2013) Staying present has been an extremely difficult task for me, as I have this sense of impending doom hanging over my head. My fear of future consequences and regret over decisions of my past keep flooding through my thoughts. I have periods of optimism followed by periods of depression. I cannot seem to stabilize my emotions. I feel as though I am living on an emotional roller coaster. Part of the difficulty of trying to stay in the present is that I am not happy with my current life condition. Don’t get me wrong, I… “read more…”
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Learning to Set Myself Free
by James Blake Beene
(originally posted May 20, 2013) Today was a day I’ve heard coined before as a blah blah day. In a day like this, when I get a case of the blahs, I have a tendency to reflect on my past and go into a depression. Fortunately I have a spiritual adviser that was able to talk me out of it; literally, had to talk me through making spaghetti, because I did not have the strength, nor the will-power to get up and do it myself. Surprisingly, after our conversation I was able to get out of self. After watching the… “read more…”
